There is a girl who has a smaller wall than years ago, but only allows some through

There is a girl who has undeniable loyalty to the limit of her values.

There is a girl who worries through the night, whether or not something can be done.

There is a girl who appreciates the few close friends she has, and misses those she has lost.

There is a girl who is beginning to push her boundaries to satisfy her curiosities.

There is a girl who wants to be able to talk with anyone, yet barely manages a few.

There is a girl who has bold ideas and dreams but is held back by the fear of being hurt.

There is a girl who wants the best out of her life but allows her walls to control what she does.

There is a girl wishing for amazing things to happen, but never makes an effort.

There is a girl who pushes herself hard in school, her job, and technical theater in and out of school to the point of burnout, only to satisfy what others need and potentially give herself happiness.

There is a girl who is picky about processes of things, organization, and proper instruction, who is learning to take the lead and make things happen.

There is a girl who, when faced with conflict, closes up and hides or lashes out in anger.

There is a girl who looks to others for guidance, knowing full well what should be done or ignores others while struggling to understand what to do and help herself.

There is a girl who is keenly aware of how much she is talking about herself and avoids doing so as much as she can.

There is a daughter who avoids almost all familial interaction because of the anxiety, disappointment and anger that follows.

There is a sister who no longer shows care or love, but in times of need does her best.

There is a friend who cares overwhelmingly for her friends and does all possible to help and comfort them, until she herself breaks.

That girl is me. The new me.

The new me is not a perfect version. No one is perfect. But everyone is trying to be their best selves. I look back on my 2016 self and see how far I have come to now and I also see how far I still have to go until I am happy with myself. Yet, the same as anyone, I am working on it. I am doing what I love and doing what I need to so that I maybe have some happiness. I am a much more self confident person now and, though I still do, I worry less about what others think of me. Almost all of my writing now is quite depressing pieces or ones that seem to come from hurt. I rarely write about much else. I don’t have the interest in or feel there is a necessity to explain my new titles, Reading my pieces it is Likely quite simple to create a basis for why I have chosen those titles to represent my blog. I am now a much more open person and don’t feel like it is necessary to throw so many details about myself out for anyone who sees my blog to read in an attempt to have people come up to me in person. I am, for the most part, able to do that on my own now.